Your environment and surrounding will tend to shape the outlook and possibilities in your life.

It might sound obvious. But when you really experience it, it's kinda mind blowing.

In the past month in Bangkok, I have realised how important it is to be surrounded by the right environment in order to shape the life toward the direction of your dream.

I’ve been working part-time for a couple of days a week. Commuting to work during the busy hours with a huge amount of crowd, looking at people scrolling through their phones mindlessly. It’s a good reminder for me to appreciate the path that I’m currently walking on. ‘Why am I choosing to be on this path’

Also, I got to talk with some people and notice how the conversation goes.

Full-time jobs, Money, Salary, buying new stuff. and so on.

I mean, it’s all alright. I don’t say any of this is bad or anything. It’s just a certain way of living. If your heart desires is that way, then it’s all fine.

It just reflected how life used to be for me. How I used to live my life and how I have changed during this time.

And it makes me realise that when you put yourself and immerse yourself in a certain environment. It’ll tend to produce a certain kind/amount of possibilities in your life. It yield certain kinds of thoughts, outlooks, emotions, way we do things, mindset, feelings, and vibes. It’s not about good or bad, but about the kind of emotions, vibes, outlooks, ways we do things, and thoughts we want to feel or have in our lives. And these things will lead to a certain kind of outlook on the possibilities of our lives. How we dream. How do we work towards our dreams/ goals/wildest dreams? I imagine myself working full-time and living in Bangkok. No way I could be daydreaming, thinking about shooting photos in Scotland and making them as postcards. No way I could be feeling inspired to read about how to prepare the canvas. To intuitively feel into the canvas how it wants to be painted after such a long day commuting through the horrendous traffic of Bangkok. No way, I'm just inspired to ramble down through the page like this if I knew that I need to do what it takes to grind through the projects and finish on a tight timeline agreed by the customers. I can feel it. No way I’ll be able to just decide to sell my paints, something like that. I can see it.

Therefore, it’s important to be mindful of where you put yourself. What environment/life do you get yourself into? Is it the day-to-day/life that allows you to daydream a little bit more, or wander a little more on the side path? Doing things that don’t necessarily achieve tangible outcomes immediately? I feel that the sometimes sweetest thing that can happen is to do those ‘unproductive’ things.

When it’s too productive, it’s too rigid for me sometimes. Those muses, creativity, and inspiration couldn’t come through because you set the hard box for them to fit in. The fixed /tight timeline to finish and move on to the next thing, just so that it’s productive.

And that might be the reason why (if there’s any tangible reason), I need to be out of the old career as soon as possible, without having any tangible path laid ahead of me.

Because I wasn’t meant to take on just any tangible path just to get by or just to get to somewhere (but it might not be where my soul really wants to get to)

I was meant to craft my path like I craft my art pieces.

The unique pieces that can only be found once in the world.

I was meant to transition and transform myself, as well as craft that path, the most aligned, the most true path that fits me perfectly for who I truly am becoming.

It wasn’t meant to be based on the past me.

It wasn’t meant to be just any tangible path available to choose from.

It was meant to be mine. Mine, all mine.

I acknowledged that sometimes it was not possible to change our situation and environment immediately to one that we truly desired.

But I believe that we could gradually work our way through that bit by bit and day by day by choosing the right options geared toward the desirable environment day by day.

For example, if you know that your current job was not aligned with your heart at all, and it kept siphoning your life force energy.

And if that company offers you a bigger paycheck, that means you will have to commit to the company even more.

Will you choose to accept that offer?

I think you’ll know by now what your soul and your heart desire in this situation.

If I were in this situation, I would say no to that offer and find my way to get the new job that might not be so prestigious but would allow me to regain my life force and light in my eyes to pursue my dream life more. Or I might just say goodbye to the company as soon as I can because I know how precious my energy and my time are now.

This might seem obvious, but from my experience, oh boy, I’ve been through many conversations, and this seems to be a hard decision for many.

And plus, I would say the way that the universe forced me to be out of the old path was also not necessarily ‘desirable’, as well.

But looking back, it has to be that way, honestly. It has to happen that way. If it weren’t that way, I would not have gained so much transformation throughout these past few years.

So what decision will you make or which options will you choose today to free yourself a little bit more so you can welcome the life and the environment that you truly desire?