The most subtle voice. The most 'unreasonable and unnecessary' choice. That is the voice of intuition guiding us to our highest timeline.

Face to face with an unreasonable option to make. Yet the whole world seems to tell us to go on with 'reasonable', 'explainable', 'safest', 'predictable' option instead.

It’s always been like this.

Since the start of my soul path/pathless path journey.

Sometimes, I even wonder why I’m such a bad girl trying to break every rule possible.

Like literally every norm defined.

And it looks so unreasonable for many people.

Sometimes, it looks like I’m trying to be dramatic.

I’m wanting the impossible.

Being extra.

Just want to get attention.

Why can’t I just live like others?

Choosing the safest, the most predictable, the conventional one.

Why do I need to be different from others?

Honestly, I don’t know. But what I feel in my heart is different from others. What she has been telling me is so different, unfathomably different from others.

It’s not that I want to become dramatic or stand out just so to get others will be interested in me or get attention.

It’s definitely not that.

And most of the time, I even thought to myself. “Huh, interesting…Why do I need to break every rule I know?”

But it just does not feel right to keep following the same old rules.

It’s just not who I feel like I want to continue being.

I’ve outgrown those parts already.

And it’s time to step up to the new timeline.

The new timeline, which…does not have much reference from the current one.

The completely different path that many people would not understand why I chose to go for it.

But it can’t be the same.

I know in my heart, it cannot be the same.

The more I choose to settle in the comfort of ‘reasonable’ ‘explainable’ ‘predictable’ ‘sensible’ move.

The more I stuck.

For example. When you say to others, I want to completely move to the new smaller city.

I don’t know how I would make it happen in terms of sustaining my living situation, but I knew I had to be there. I have to be there first, and I’ll know how to do it. If I’m not there, I can’t figure it out.

It will sound crazy to many people.

Why can’t you just work in a stable job with stable pay in the big city? So, you can save up for later and move to somewhere where life is simpler.

But I don’t want to wait. I don’t want to wait for almost my whole life, spending all my youth away.

And many people would be like ‘you can’t have everything you want in life’ or else if everyone followed their wants, the whole professional workers who walk on the street would just quit their jobs and do something else they want.

And I was like, ‘What’s wrong with that? That’s legitimately what they can do with their life if their heart chooses to.’

We, many of us, are so stuck with restrictions, you have to live life this way, you have to follow this, until we become so restricted with how we can truly live our lives.

We stuck with…

‘Wanting is not enough’

‘Logic is superior to desire’

‘Desire is unpredictable and should not be trusted’

‘Desire is daydreaming and should not be trusted.’

‘Follow stable path over everything or else you’re doomed’

‘Sacrifice the slightest stability can harm your life’

‘We should grind through and then enjoy later’

Tho that could be true to some people, but it should not be the sole correct way to live life.

I know it is true that ‘wanting is not enough’.

That’s why I’m taking action toward my dream now.

And my dream is to live somewhere where life is much simpler.

So I’m taking the actions now. instead of wanting and waiting and wanting.

That’s what I’m doing.

Because life mostly comes to you when you feel the least prepared.

Like you want to become a YouTuber. You’re not suddenly going to become good at YouTube skills without hours of practising, editing, and just starting your YouTube channel right away.

You have the capability inside you, waiting to be honed, nourished, and cherished.

But if you just don’t do it straightaway. Those capabilities won’t come out. And you’ll continue to be in the same loop of feeling unprepared and not getting it started over and over again.

So, this is my action taking towards my dream. No matter how people might say over and over again to me that I have to gradually take it step by step, live in the big city, work, save money just to be safe and then go for that wildest dream when I’m older.

But I don’t want to live my life like that. It would be that I’ll start living my actual life that I truly want at the age of 45-50.

And if I don’t take actions toward that dream, if I choose to subside that dream, blow away that burning inner flame and choose the stable path over that dream, there will be no steps, no progress will be made towards those dreams anyway.

Why do I need to wait to live life for later when I can live it right now?

Why do I need to pause my dream and drain my inner flame just to beg ‘stability’ not to go? And become drowned with the ‘should dos’ that are projected from other people, but not from within me.