2024 wrap up thoughts + อยากให้คนได้สัมผัสธรรมชาติด้วยใจ
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2024 wrap up thoughts + อยากให้คนได้สัมผัสธรรมชาติด้วยใจ
2024 is 10 years in 1 single year for me in terms of a huge transformation of my inner worldview and perspectives about life. My whole life just flipped upside down from working in the business field, and professional identity to an artist (I guess I can call myself like that) who looks to create things from the heart and the soul.
Although looking from an outside perspective, there aren’t many new projects finished or goals achieved like I used to have in previous years, I believe 2024 was the wrap-up of the transformation since 2021 when I experienced what I could best describe as a ‘Spiritual Awakening’. I think it’s the most life-changing year so far and I am glad that I was not rushing to achieve things, pushing to create achievements when I was called to slow down and recalibrate inside (even though it felt like that from time to time as I was so used to the fast pace of the world).
And I can sense that in 2025, even more unexpected things will come up for me. This might be the year that I hope to create things physically from the internal transformation that has been going on for a few years.
My only intention/resolution for this year is to do things that align with my soul the most and create things from my heart. I hope that there will be more heart projects coming up. Unlike before, I don’t want to have any rigid goals instead I let life/soul guide me and meet me where it is supposed to flow.
A few lessons I want to capture for the year 2024.
🪷Let life come meet me.: Coming out from the corporate/business world where instant actions, deadlines, and fast-paced work are necessary things, I had a hard time to relax myself. My overstimulated nervous system, My cringed jaws. My stiff body. There are so many business people who can balance and have a healthy life working in business, but it seems to not be for my case somehow. My soul just wants different things. And this soul path required me to let go, surrender, lose grip, and pause all the time. Rejuvenate until my inner well is full to share. So, I gradually learn how to let life meet me more, to surrender and not rush, not complete for the sake of completion, and not create so tight deadlines for myself.
🪷 Have faith in my soul and my intuition: It is very hard for me at first. In 2021, I first learnt about trusting my intuition and my soul. I tried and tried to do it, but it wasn’t quite handy. It took me almost 2 years for me to grasp it. I knew that it was because mostly we use mind a lot in our daily tasks, work, responsibilities. That’s why I was so struggling. And what struggle me even more is the soul whispers/intution mostly are crazy things that I wouldn’t do if I decide from the mind. I’ve encountered endless things that I don’t have a courage to leap into from listening to my intuitions. But she always right and has always been since the start. The more I tried to avoid or make it other ways that I can escape from facing the truth in my heart, the more agony it creates inside. So, that’s why it’s almost 2 years :) I just didn’t want to accept I mean. And those guidances from the soul are not always lead to instant results (mine also has no tangible result yet). Therefore, it would be very hard to continue having faith in it for someone who just learned to trust intuition. But that’s life. Life is an accumulation of changes, small minor changes over time and every day. You look back you might find yourself a completely different person. So, it will take time naturally in everything. But one thing that you will feel from acting on your intuition is you will feel supported and light in your heart. Even if you’ve just done the scariest move, somehow deep down inside it’s like there’s a cushion to support you. And you just have to keep going regardless of how the mind might try to protect you from doing so.
🪷 Creating things from hearts is so powerful (for me): After I had some time for myself. Heal myself by engaging with nature more. I start to notice that I am very drawn to the creators who channel their creations from the heart more and more. It’s like they have magic in their crafts somehow. And that magic resonates deep to the heart level. So, it’s a very interesting thing that I found this year. Do you feel this too??? What do you think???
Moving on to the next part which is the title of this blog “อยากให้คนสัมผัสธรรมชาติด้วยใจ” (Want people to immerse themselves in nature more and feel with their own heart)
I noticed that when I get in touch and turn towards Nature more. I feel more congruent with Mother Nature and Mother Earth.
The time I spent in Scotland and the UK indulging myself in the arms of nature helped me realize how all these past ten years I longed to return to nature. I crave, I yearned for nature throughout the past years since I started my bachelor's degree until working. (because before that I spent a lot of time in a school full of trees)
During that time in Scotland and the UK, I began to form a bond with nature again and even deeper than ever before.
It’s like she is always holding and nourishing me no matter how I feel that day.
It was like she was always trying to help us even when we didn’t realize.
It is like she always loves and cares for us.
But sadly, sometimes we turn our back against her.
And I saw how overconsumption is an inevitable trend in our world.
Think of Mother Earth. How heavily she might have to bear with this rate of consumption. And I notice that many think that ‘I have money so I have the right to consume. I will turn on every light in the house or run every electronic appliance just to make this hotel stay worth my money paid’. (I used to think like that I confess.) But, that’s how you view her as monetary value and just ‘resource’ that can be spent. We don’t allow ourselves to reconnect back to the Mother.
If you come back to nature more, you basically a little step-by-step merge back to her more. Merge back to the whole flow of the entire universe, the flow of the seasons, the flow of nature.
The more you separate yourself from nature i.e. overindulged in materialism. You’ll find your life not so smooth. (Anyway, I know the Mother still loves everyone the same and everyone on earth is just her child.) It’s just because you rely on your strength only, carry it all by yourself through life. Imagine: comparing rafting in a big stream of the flowy river (flow of nature and the entire universe) and rafting in a small stream of river (that you build by yourself alone), do you see which one is more flow?
If you live in more reverence for nature, I feel that you’ll be supported with the same force/ in flow with the same force that flows in the entire universe. It doesn’t have to always be leaving the city to live in the forest. It’s just you have ‘good/pure intentions’ for nature for the better. (And even if you made mistakes that’s ok I did it all the time. It’s about “Intentions”) So, it will seem like everything flows in your life more smoothly if you live in congruence with your soul (your inner nature) and nature which by the way they made up of the same intelligence. I noticed that when I was young I saved water and utility bill just because teachers taught global warming at the school and I thought it’s good to follow. So THAT intention was good but it wasn’t from deep within. (Anyway, it’s still decent and we should start somewhere right?) Now after connecting with Mother nature deeper, my good intentions for nature were deeper than that. I feel from within.
But even you flow with the same force with the universe. Seasons come and go. Autumn will come and winter will come. So not that it will be sunny and bright all the time. That’s life. Let life come meet you.
จากประสบการณ์ที่ได้อยู่กับธรรมชาติมากขึ้นตอนที่อยู่สกอตแลน์และสหราชอาณาจักร อยากให้คนสัมผัสธรรมชาติด้วยใจ สัมผัสธรรมชาติในแบบที่ลึกซึ้งมากยิ่งขึ้น that’s where the magic happend!
